This is a picture of me the morning I was being induced for Ruby's birth.I stayed up late the night before getting ready, putting finishing touches on the receiving blankets I had made for my new baby.This is a picture of me before my whole world changed and God started teaching me lots of new lessons.
I was looking at this picture last night and thought,you have no idea everything is about to change,after a difficult and scary delivery the nurse is going to tell you,"They think your baby has Down Syndrome."You have no idea how upsetting it will be not to get to hold your baby,to see her gasping for breath,for them to hold her next to you to see her and then take her quickly away so they can give her oxygen and check her heart and maybe send her to a children's hospital close by if her heart is not o.k. To finally find out her heart is o.k. and she wont be moved to another hospital.To wait even longer before you can go to the NICU to see her and when you do see her she is tiny and has lots of wires coming from all over her body.To be told she will probably have to go on a respirator during the night(she never had to,thank goodness).
To feel guilty that your old and gave this to your baby.To have a Dr. point at you and say this Down Syndrome came from you.To just want to rewind everything and make it all different.
This is a picture of me before everything changed.
