My husband went Saturday and signed up my 14,9,7,and 5 year old daughters for soccer.We missed last soccer season because of the birth of Ruby.(We weren't sure what medical issues Ruby might have and didn't want to commit to anything).
My 7 year old daughter will be on a team with some of the girls she played soccer with before I had Ruby.One of the Mom's and I were pregnant and due about the same time.I'm having a hard time knowing I will have to see this Mom and her baby.I'm worried about the emotions I will have when I see what her baby can do and what Ruby is not doing.Just knowing I would be seeing her reminded me again of my thoughts and expectations of the child I was carrying and that I did not have that child.
I love my little Ruby so much and I don't want other people to feel sorry for me or Ruby,she is such a wonderful baby.
So,I'm not looking forward to soccer but I have a few days to sort through my feelings and deal with them before practices start.Maybe I will be o.k. by then.I already feel a little better just getting it out here.