Friday, December 19, 2008
Coming Out of the Fog
It seems like since I've had my baby with DS I have lost my patience to listen to trivial things or even watch t.v. Maybe it was just hormones or maybe the shock of finding out my baby has special needs.I'm starting to get over it now.I can listen more patiently on the phone when people call and just want to talk.For awhile I didn't want to answer the phone when friends called because I felt like I was in a different world from them.They don't have the worries that I do.Yes,Ruby is doing good but there are so many things that could happen to her health.Just the fact that she is more prone to get leukemia terrifies me.I try not to think about all the things that could happen,I can't do anything about them anyway.I just have to go day to day and be thankful for her health right now. I'm finally able after almost 5 months to talk on the phone and not be thinking in my head, "Could you just shut up !" if it wasn't something truly important.That wasn't like me at all to think that way. I think I may be coming out of the fog now.