Friday, December 19, 2008

Coming Out of the Fog

It seems like since I've had my baby with DS I have lost my patience to listen to trivial things or even watch t.v. Maybe it was just hormones or maybe the shock of finding out my baby has special needs.I'm starting to get over it now.I can listen more patiently on the phone when people call and just want to talk.For awhile I didn't want to answer the phone when friends called because I felt like I was in a different world from them.They don't have the worries that I do.Yes,Ruby is doing good but there are so many things that could happen to her health.Just the fact that she is more prone to get leukemia terrifies me.I try not to think about all the things that could happen,I can't do anything about them anyway.I just have to go day to day and be thankful for her health right now. I'm finally able after almost 5 months to talk on the phone and not be thinking in my head, "Could you just shut up !" if it wasn't something truly important.That wasn't like me at all to think that way. I think I may be coming out of the fog now.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Cheryl, what a blessing it is to follow your blogspot each day. I am looking forward to holding her again and letting her crawl around on my too fat tummy.
Ruby's Papa

Lisa said...

Cheryl, I can relate to this on so many levels. Finding out about Finn's Ds changed me in so many ways, and even now, there are still things - and sadly, certain people - that were important to me before but now it's all changed. I feel like I've pretty much come out of the fog, but as a changed person in many ways.

SunflowerMom said...

{{{hugs}}} I'm glad you are feeling better. I remember being in a fog for several months- just numb for awhile. When it lifts, you are amazed that you felt that way for so long.

Kari said...

I didn't find out Tristan had DS until after he was born. When they first told me I didn't believe them. The funny thing is the second they told me I knew it was true I saw it. It didn't seem real for a long time though. I can relate to the reference to being in a FOG. It took me about a year before it completely lifted. Tristan has brought me so much Joy the past almost 5 years. He's my little buddy I can't imagine life without him. I guess What I'm trying to say is I was so sad when they told me Tristan had DS and now today I am so thankful that he does. I can't Imagine who he would be if he didn't have his little extra Chromosome. He just wouldn't be him without it. I still have times when my friends with typical children just don't get it. Luckily I can turn to my Sisters of the T21 club for support. I have met the most amazing people over the years :) You are smart to focus on the now. I used to spend so much time worrying. Will he get Leukemia will he have AAI will he walk will he talk will he read will he ever get married will he drive a car? He does walk and talk and well the reading and finding a spouse will come in time. After all he is only 4. LOL I am happy to read your doing well.

JaybirdNWA said...

Cheryl,
Thanks for visiting my blog and listing it on yours. I am glad to have you as a reader. There are so many issues that we as parents of children with Ds face that are unique to parents with "typical children" that it is sometimes difficult to relate. But we are learning that the more we expose ourselves and John to them, the more they learn that children with Ds have abilities.